From her pocket, she pulls the two amber bottles of pills. She thinks of Betty and her pain, Betty who wanted to die beautifully, and didn't. She takes a bottle of Evian out of her basket, the first bottle water she's bought since the divorce. She felt giddy buying the water, because for once she could afford to be reckless with money.

The pills take a long time to go down. She knows that; she's done enough research to know that some suicides are unsuccessful because halfway through, the very process gets...boring. Kate knows she has to swallow them fast enough so she'll still be lucid enough to slip into the river, so she's set her watch to go off in 10 minutes if, God forbid, she isn't done. Or, God forbid, she's fallen asleep.

When she was in the library doing the research, Kate realized that she had learned enough to teach a class. She imagined herself going on that Oprah show, or giving Martha Stewart tips on an aesthetically pleasing end. She wished she had somone to share the joke with, but Betty was gone, and Blink would try to stop her.